Sadha in Art

It was hot, so I made soy sauce egg rice with tofu soup.
This tofu soup is just made with one coin-sized broth cube. Simple as that. :-)

This was the next day’s dinner.
It really feels like we’ve reached a point where living without air conditioning just isn’t possible anymore.
The thought of “I should wait a little longer before turning it on” doesn’t even cross my mind now.

There’s a cactus my landlord is growing, and it bloomed—with a flower this big.
I’ve never seen a cactus flower this large before.
Seeing it up close made it even more fascinating.
But by evening, the flower had already wilted,
and I was left a bit confused… @_@ Was it meant to fade in just one day?

Luckily, I was able to capture it on video while it was in full bloom.

The second little garden I pass by on my way to take a walk :-)
Even in this hot weather, everything is growing so well—it’s really nice to see.

Starting a drawing journal.

I try to set tasks for myself and get things done,
but there’s no pressure, no system I’m part of— just me, planning and working on my own.

Because of that, I do work hard when I’m feeling motivated.
But when I’m not feeling well, or on days like these when it’s so hot,
I just want to lie down and stay like that. It’s hard to keep myself focused. ㅠ_ㅠ

I guess I’m just not good at staying motivated.
Early on, there were so many things I wanted to try,
and since there was no real structure yet,
I stayed busy digging around, trying this and that.

Now the structure’s in place…
but somehow I feel even more lost and sluggish.

I don’t think I have a strong will.
When someone has a goal, they work hard and move forward.
I don’t seem to be that kind of person.

I was working on my drawing journal, feeling a bit defeated— when suddenly,
a notification popped up from Marple Shop. ㅇㅁㅇ

Some of my goods have sold there before,
and I remember being amazed and kind of in disbelief back then too.
But this time, it’s a creator-shipped item! That means I have to send it out myself.

Multiple pieces were purchased, so I sat down for a moment to calm my nerves…..;;;

If orders came in more regularly,
I’d probably remember the workflow better— but since there’s such a long gap between them,
I always feel tense, like it’s my first time.

Whenever I get an order, I just freeze up and go into derp mode..;

Three A5 prints and four stickers, plus a Marpple Shop item—a tin case—were ordered.

The tin case is made and shipped by Marpple Shop.

First, I print the three A5 pieces and set them out to dry.

While the prints were drying,
I finished up and edited the drawing journal entries I’d fallen behind on.

If I had packed things quickly that day,
I could’ve shipped them in the afternoon.
But honestly, I wasn’t feeling well—had stomach pain. ㅠ_ㅠ
Cold sweat kept coming out too…

So I just did the printing and decided to pack everything the next morning.

( “Unknown Seoul Script”)
Mirae : “I couldn’t hang on,, I ran away, grandma”
Granma : “You did well, Mirae . “You did the right thing”

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If I walk away like this, am I just running away?
Does it mean I lack patience?
It feels like a waste to let go of everything I’ve done until now.
How long am I going to live with this feeling?
Is this what life is supposed to be…?

.

There were times when I felt like I was somehow broken.
I’d beat myself up, wondering, “Everyone else seems to manage—why can’t I?”
I left as if I were escaping, and started drawing.
Since then, both my mind and body have felt much more at ease.

But still… I feel anxious and restless, simply because I’m nothing right now.
Those feelings—while watching this drama— I wouldn’t say I was healed,
but I did feel comforted somehow.

(Sticking stickers everywhere, just because. ㅋㅋ)

The next morning, I woke up feeling good—thanks to yesterday’s order.
I was in a better mood and felt physically well too, so I got busy packing everything.

I had a bunch of test stickers from before,
so I included some as little gifts, and stuck a few on the box too. :-)

(🌤️ Heading to the post office (This weather—is it even real…?)

There’s a small pomegranate tree in the park near my house.
Since it’s short, I can see the fruits up close. They’re still tiny—and so, so cute.

After sending off the package, I had a meal with a clear and light heart.

I know that’s the only place I can go back to

But it feels so pathetic

And I’m sick of it

I have all this life ahead of me,

and I feel completely lost

If a deer

runs away from a lion, does that make it trash?

anything you do to survive is

Is a brave thing


Ah… I am brave—ahhhhhh! Gathering up my strength once again.

(I know exactly how that feels… I really do.. ;ㅁ;)

But the line that comforted me the most in this drama… is in the next photo.

Shoul i have stuck it out a bit longer?

No

There’s no point proving something that isn’t true

if the people by your side know the truth, that’s enough.

:-)