Sadha in Art

I brought peaches from my mom’s house.
Since I live alone, I don’t usually buy fruit.
So whenever I visit her,
she has fruit ready and packs it up for me.

I say, ‘It’s heavy, mom…
They sell peaches near my place too, you know…’ (And yet, I still don’t buy them myself.)

But once I bring them home,
I end up enjoying every bite.
And of course, my mom knows that about me.

Stir-fried spicy pork made by my mom,
and steamed pumpkin leaves by my landlord… :-) (Thank you!)

I’ve finished watching Attack on Titan.
Now I’ve decided to steer clear of other series for a while.
They’re just too addictive…
I don’t like feeling trapped in that cycle.

(Still, Attack on Titan keeps popping into my head.)

Cherries from my mom… :-)

I really liked the illustrated diary pages I drew during that time,
so I turned them into card-style digital downloads and now sell them on Etsy. :-)
https://www.etsy.com/shop/DreamingSadha

I finished the last drawing, but I didn’t really like it.
So I just completed it and didn’t upload it anywhere.😉

The message I lost in childhood: ‘You are accepted just as you are.

Yeah. That sentence is really important in my life.
(Is it because that message was lost…?)

Among all the Enneagram books I’ve read,
this one seems to explain it best.

I keep searching for someone who can accept me just as I am.

And yet, part of me feels that it may not be possible…
(Somehow, this type seems to already know that.
Maybe it’s because
the reference point feels like it’s somewhere beyond the sky—out in the universe.)

That part always hurts…

So with people I care about,
I keep trying to share what I think are my strange sides.

As if I want to be known—just as I am. (And sometimes, that makes me go quiet again.)

Meals that become simpler in the heat.

I’m working on transforming my illustrated diary into card designs,
carefully crafting each phrase that goes with them.

(The cards are available in both English and Korean.)

I love making the cards—that part is honestly fun.

But once they’re done,
taking photos, editing, and writing detailed descriptions for Etsy That part feels heavy.

(100 million times I’ve thought: ‘Ughhh! I don’t want to do this!!!’)

Then, somewhere, I came across the phrase:
‘Work without your brain.’

And I thought, wait—maybe I should try that.
So I did. And… surprisingly, it helped.

Now, whenever I have to do something I really don’t want to,
I’ve decided to leave my brain out of it.

I once hoarded seasoned seaweed and finally finished it.
Now I’ve switched to plain seaweed—and I like it better.

No more seasoned ones for me!

“It’s too hot to prep fresh vegetables, so I started buying frozen ones instead.

I love the moment after rain,
when everything feels richer and more vivid.

The scent of damp soil and grass fills the air.
Even the bugs on the ground seem to
move more energetically once the rain has passed.

They don’t understand that ‘being oneself’ doesn’t require effort.

Why do I keep thinking I need to be myself?
What even is “myself”? What makes it so important ?

And yet— the truth is,
I’ve worked so hard for that “self.”

But maybe it’s time to stop trying so much.
Oddly enough, that feels like comfort.

This type finds freedom when it stops striving to “be itself”
and begins to discover its true beauty.

I’m still someone who cares deeply about being myself.
But I’ve come to a place where it’s okay
even if that “self” isn’t special.
According to this book,
I’m in a pretty healthy state now— and that made me happy. :-)

Brown Rice Chocolate Bar

Yakgwa(Korean Honey Pastry)

Actually, I wanted to go grocery shopping in person—
but I don’t have a car, the store is too far,
and it’s just too hot outside.

So I had no choice but to order from Oasis.

Ordinary days… I’m grateful for. :-)

Includes English and Japanese subtitles